I had sat down feeling heavy and began to journal about our financial pressure,direction on my vocation, if I should homeschool my children or work outside the home and a host of other inquiries. I felt spent, completely burned out from trying to figure it all out. Things were very quiet as I tried to “hear” the voice of God. The only sound was of a very faint crackle from the wood in the fireplace where we had a nice fire the night before.
I went over to see what was left of the charred wood. Two very tiny red embers glowed in the ash. I was curious if I could start another nice fire from the flame if I started to blow. And blow I did. I felt like the big bad wolf. The red embers showed up more and more as air was blown across it. I added some paper and blew till the embers sparked into a flame and before long, I had a fire.
God spoke to me through that fire. It wasn’t Moses and the burning bush but inside my heart, He spoke to me. My breathing on those ashed logs represented His breathing on my dreams which had all but completely gone out. I’d given up on a lot of things and there was barely an ember of hope. He went on to tell me that as His breath ignited the embers in my heart, the paper of the fire represented His word which would spark it all into flames. I thought about all this as I continued to feed the fire.
“He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap.” Psalm 13:7
As the fire grew, I noticed that beneath the grate holding the logs was a large pile of ash. God prompted me to remove the ash that “stifled” the flame. To me, that meant removing the things and thoughts in my life that basically threw cold water on the fire. As I removed the ash the fire grew stronger. I began to feel like I was on Holy Ground right there in my home.
A dying spark can be a hundred different things, really. Relationship that seems irreparable, finances that see hopeless, a dream that seems a million miles away, health that is unpredictable, and the list can go on. But as long as you are still sucking air, you are alive and you have a spark within you that can turn into a roaring fire.
If you are just a spark, if your fire has all but died, ask the LORD to breathe on you. The same breath that gave you life will revive you. Turn to His word where you will find the hope that will fan that spark into a flame. The more time spend with the Him and in His word, the greater your fire will become.
“The Spirit of God has made me; the breath of the Almighty gives me life.” -Job 33:4
And remember to remove the ash of those lies the enemy whispers, the discouraging words you tell yourself, and the bad habits that have taken over. Remove anything that keeps that flame from growing stronger. Your fire matters. The fire in your life is a light and conduit of God’s love to those you encounter. Never under estimate the wild fire you can become with the Spirit of God in you.
“In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.” Matthew 5:16